You don't know why i left you
Thursday 13 November 2014 | 17:13 | 0
Sup.
So I haven't checked this space out in... what? almost 2 years? Well I completely forgot I actually HAD a blog and yep, I kinda realised how lame I used to be, but to be honest... Those were the days man. I kind of thank God for a blog because it reminds me of how i felt right at that moment. So i actually went to stalk my own post..... the last post i had was 10 days before bb went to the army and some updates now are.. we've received that message e v e r y army guy is glad to receive.
'Congratulations, you've less than 6 months to ORD'
Whatever the message was but it was something along this line.
So.... I guessed i survived 1.5/3 of this horrible life... and now i'm onto the fourth lap, then 2 more and i'd be done. There's so much to complain about school but actually... no point because at the end of the day, who's gonna care what's a student grieves?
Then again, i'm still gonna complain here, anyway i doubt anyone remembers about this space anyways........
So i applied for OITP with my best friend, but I don't think i'm gonna get the chance to even go because
#1 the people that is fighting with me are fucking smart
#2 I made a few wrong moves with my choices
#3 the teachers are fucking biased
But this doesn't mean i'm not going.. but i won't take back my words even if i got the chance to go. It's a true reality that the teachers are biased anyways.
After the interview and selections... what i heard is that a guy changed his choices and because of that, they allowed a guy that didn't even go through an interview to be allowed into the selection just because he's a GUY. Where's the gender equality? Seriously...... and did i mention how irresponsible the teachers were? Results for the OITP was mentioned to be released latest wednesday. Now it's already thursday and office hours are almost over and there's still 0 news regarding who got through to the program. Wow, talk about efficiency SP. Don't go around trolling people.
Then again..... who am i to complain? I'm not a GPA 4.0 student, not one with full attendance and definitely not one that's always sucking up to teachers. I've no rights... right?
OH and coming to the topic of sucking up to teachers... Wow I definitely have a classmate that does it pretty darn well. Like it kinda goes to the extent it actually grossed me out. I'm sorry if my words hurt, but to be honest, my words didn't, the truth did. You should reflect on your own habits? or should i say STYLE? hmmmm, but then again.. who cares? At least i don't stoop to your level, then i guess i'm pretty much still good.
Oh and last thing to complain about... I HATE HATE HATE ABSOLUTELY HATES people talking behind my back. Oh wait it isn't people talking, it's just you. Seriously, you brought it upon yourself. Don't blame it on me, or the rest. You choices, you made them. You face the fucking music. I would be absolutely honest, yup i don't like you, and it isn't just don't fancy, it's DETEST.
I DESPISE YOU TOO.
Dare me to see how long my friendship with them/her can last? Game's fucking on girl. Don't you dare go back crying to Mama, cause mama's gonna tell you how some words can't be taken back.
Okay basically, i've ranted enough about school....... work sucks too tho, like whatever meh, at least no bullshit people to deal with, just people's temper to tolerate. I could do that for money...... so yup!
But overall, what was the best was that me and baby lasted 2 years and still as loving as ever so i guess my life isn't as bad as it seems and i kinda still like it.
xoxo
"there are many things that you don't know"
How can i remember to forget
Tuesday 30 April 2013 | 23:49 | 0
Hi.
So here I'm watching B sleep and decided to do a post.
One of my favourite pictures w baby. Its cute how we can just be so ourselves with each other.
So I was attempting to take a picture of the MRT crowd that day on the way to school and apparently got photobomb.... :( But this indian DAMN FUNNY RIGHT. I LOL.
Baby brought me to this Little India's Ice Cream Shop! They make the ice cream on the spot! one thing was i can't try the flavour :( so i could only try my luck... so i got Salted caramel and it tasted FABULOUS :p couldn't stop asking for more :(
So school has been making me so sleepy recently :( Everyday i sleep sleep, everynight i sleep sleep.
Ok yeah. My buddies for 3 years......... always a happy class i would say. A happy class is always a good class. Therefore It should be a happy 3 years :D
CUTEST TEACHER EVER! HHAHAHAHAHAH FML.
Scientist Liu. Hmmmm, GONNA BE FAMOUS ONE DAY OK.
My poly Girlfriends <3
Had a really bad fever that night :( Right before MBS.
But because of YOLO. I still went and swam.
So that's basically my life. Boyfriend, School, Sleep. Yeah.
I miss my Secondary friends so bad and yes i'm getting to see them tomorrow! and maybe a sleepover at Michy's on Friday after work! loving my life~ living the life.
TEEHEE.
posts are getting shorter and shorter lately cause there's just nothing much to say anymore.
10 more days and baby is leaving for the army sigh pie.... 2 years. Time will fly past, yes? yes.
So Noreen just had to tell me a damn sad story :( It's always so important to treasure the people we have right now cause they might just be gone tomorrow. Life is so freaking ass fragile. SIGH :(
xoxo
"But i'm wide awake and i want you so much right now"
One thing
Sunday 21 April 2013 | 23:49 | 0
SCHOOL SUCKS.
Hi, I've survived a week of school and apparently it sucks. A whole great deal. Maybe i'm just not used to the whole idea of studying all over again. But just looking at my timetable is depressing, what's worst is looking at my alarm clock. Wah can cry already 3/5 days i gotta get up at 6 and the other two is like 8/9 SIGH. Doesn't matter, suck it up. But the thought that 4/5 days i end at 5 CANNOT LA Cannot get over it. OI WHY SP DO THIS TO ME WHY AH WHY.
Then again after one month, I would get over it la haha. It's only the first week tho and I found the work i'm learning so hard...... what the. Poly isn't fun at all la. Who said it was fun apparently LIED. Hmph. Thank god for bb to teach me though or else i'll probably just sink and die in my course.
BUT one really good thing is my classmates are quite good and nice to me ^_^ at least they dont make me hate school or whatever. my class super duper bonded that we move in a pack sia damn funny. so yup.
19 more days and b's gonna go A.R.M.Y. sigh pie why oh why why army take him away from me huh huh huh 2 years straight some more what is this.
and my earpiece is spoiling, any cutie wanna buy me a new earpiece? yup thanks. LOL
I've got nothing much to say leh..... feels like i go school everyday that's all.
Watched General Yang on friday tho!!! Stupid show. Waste time ):< but the scenes all quite ew la. the way they murder all ughohdjdlkfjldask sick.
Five days study week. Live with it for the next 3 years. Suck it up and hope time flies.
xoxo
"I'm dying just to make you stay"
I thought
Monday 15 April 2013 | 00:51 | 0
Life just loves to challenge me.
Every time I tell myself everything is gonna get better, no, it doesn't. It doesn't work that way.
People say you grow wiser and more mature after solving all your problems but that ain't true. It makes me feel like giving up. I don't even want to continue struggling, why must life treat me this way. What did i ever did wrong? I'm only turning 18. Not even legal for most of the things, yet I have to act like i'm some 30 year old, thinking of how to make ends meet, how to provide for myself. Yes, be independent, I know. But to be independent at 18 isn't all that easy, I need to a certain extend of support.
Parents? What are parents? What is family? I feel like I am a frog that jumped into a wrong well dropping so quickly so deeply into a very dark one. that I don't even know what are all this anymore. Everything is becoming so blur to me, I am forgetting all that. Some times I question myself. Why isn't my family the happily ever after kind. Why does mine make me carry all the weight on my shoulder alone? I may be strong, but every strong man will eventually get weak. And when I get weak who's ever gonna be there to share the weight with me?
I'm so glad to have found my boy. Without him, I would probably have crumbled and crash under this weight. He may not be able to help me carry the burdens I have but at least he is able to make me forget about the weight and just smile for that few moments. He would be there at my highest and lowest point of life, sharing my joys, wiping my tears. Telling me how life would always get better.
Just his simple smile and hug always make me feel like I am never alone, I always have someone.
And never forget the two best girlfriends I have and love! Seah Li Yi and Michelle Thio. Ya'll always have my back. You all would always be there when I need help. Helping me without even asking questions, without even hesitating. We may not be with each other 24/7 the time, some times we don't even meet for weeks, don't even talk for days but whenever any of us need each other, we'll always always be there for each other. Despite the busy schedule we have we always try our bestest to make time for each other. We went through thick and thin all together. 6 years of friendship, and i'm certain that we are gonna be a lifetime of friends.
Thanks guys for everything you have ever done for me!
Sometimes I just wish I could be 8 all over again.
xoxo
"Maybe I'm too naive, thinking that a miracle would happen"
